A journal entry written just days before we conceived:
2/12/08
I often think “why me?” , “why us?” I feel like a failure as a women and a wife. We have so much love to give and are just praying that one day we will be able to share it with a child of our own. I’m tired of hearing “you’re young”, “it will happen eventually”, but when, I ask. My heart breaks daily, but I do my best to put on a happy face and not let anyone know how I really feel. Not even my Husband. We have been through so much in the past two years. Sometimes I just sit and think about how many more cycles are we going to go through to just be disappointed…AGAIN. Then I find myself looking at all of the other pregnant people around me whether I know them or not and just yearn for the day it will be “my turn.” I don’t think one week has past in the last two months that I have not found out that someone else in my life is pregnant. Whether it is someone who I work with, worked with in the past, a family member or a friend. Then I feel bad for thinking, what makes them so special that they got pregnant so fast? Not even trying sometimes. Then you have us who have tried just about everything to get pregnant with failure after failure…
2/12/08
I often think “why me?” , “why us?” I feel like a failure as a women and a wife. We have so much love to give and are just praying that one day we will be able to share it with a child of our own. I’m tired of hearing “you’re young”, “it will happen eventually”, but when, I ask. My heart breaks daily, but I do my best to put on a happy face and not let anyone know how I really feel. Not even my Husband. We have been through so much in the past two years. Sometimes I just sit and think about how many more cycles are we going to go through to just be disappointed…AGAIN. Then I find myself looking at all of the other pregnant people around me whether I know them or not and just yearn for the day it will be “my turn.” I don’t think one week has past in the last two months that I have not found out that someone else in my life is pregnant. Whether it is someone who I work with, worked with in the past, a family member or a friend. Then I feel bad for thinking, what makes them so special that they got pregnant so fast? Not even trying sometimes. Then you have us who have tried just about everything to get pregnant with failure after failure…
February 27, 2008
After two years of trying to conceive, many tests, procedures and surgery, Greg and I got the best gift today – a positive pregnancy test. After being diagnosed with unexplained infertility, Dr. Miller suggested that we try an exploratory laparoscopic surgery to determine if there was anything wrong and if there was he could attempt to fix the problem during surgery. At this point we were willing to try anything as we were desperately wanting to start a family. On December 11, 2007 I went in for surgery and had a bleeding cist removed from one of my ovaries and an adhesion removed from one of my tubes. After just two cycles we were pregnant. It was an emotional journey, but worth every minute.
Below is the poem we gave to our family to tell them the wonderful news.
I do not have a face to see,
Or put inside a frame.
I do not have soft cheeks to kiss,
I don't yet have a name.
You can't yet hold my tiny hands,
Nor whisper in my ear.
It's still too soon to sing a song,
Or cuddle me so near.
But all will change come November,
That's when they say I'm due.
I'm your new grandson or granddaughter,
I can't wait till I meet you.
All I ask between now and then,
Is your patience while I grow.
I promise I'll be worth the wait,
Because of all the love we'll know.
So what I have to give you now,
is a wish to you from me.
I cannot wait to be a part
Of this wonderful family.
March 26, 2008
Well Greg and I had our first appointment yesterday and although we got some questions answered and a bag of information, we did not get an ultrasound. The ultrasound tech is only in the office twice a week. We are scheduled to have our ultrasound on Monday, March 31st. At that time we should be able to hear the heartbeat and see our little miracle. Although we (I mostly) were disappointed that we didn’t get to hear the heartbeat, everything went well. They are calculating my due date to be November 5th! However, that might change slightly once the ultrasound is done.
Dr. Miller joked about not having triplets lately and we just laughed it off. Then last night I was talking to Mom and she more than willing offered up the info that my Great Grandmother's sister had triplets. Oy! So here's hoping that we only see one little heartbeat on Monday. Keep your fingers crossed.
Until next time....
With Love,
Dawn
April 1, 2008
We had our first ultrasound yesterday and we saw ONE strong little heartbeat. It was the most amazing thing I have ever seen. The heart rate was 178! We even got to see a little foot sticking out. If you look at the attached photos you can sort of make out the arms and legs. The baby is measuring right on schedule and will be due around November 5th.
Until next time...
With Love,
Dawn
April 25, 2008
I went in for a check-up yesterday and everything looks good. I got to hear the heartbeat for the first time which was truly amazing! I haven’t gained any weight which is music to my ears. I’m still having a hard time with my heartburn so Dr. Miller said I can start taking Zantac, so cross your fingers and toes that it works. Other than that I am starting to feel better each day. One more week and I’ll be out of the 1st trimester. Yay!
Until next time...
With Love,
Dawn
May 28, 2008
I’m 17 weeks today! Time is flying. I went in for a check-up yesterday and we are doing great. We heard the heartbeat (first time for Greg) and it sounded strong! It took a minute to find it, I guess the baby was being shy – – starting to worry me already. I gained 5 pounds and it is pretty good since it is the only weight gain I’ve had thus far. The Zantac is helping a lot more than anything else so I’ll continue taking that for heartburn. Due to a genetic family history, Dr. Miller is sending me to a neonatologist (Dr. Christmas) for genetic testing and an extensive ultrasound. That appointment is scheduled for June 18. So three more weeks and we will find out the sex of the baby!
Until next time...
With Love,
Dawn
June 18, 2008
I’m 20 weeks today – half way! Today we had our visit with Dr. Christmas. He said everything looks healthy and normal. The heart rate was 156 bpm. The ultrasound tech asked if we wanted to know what the sex was and I said “of course!” She had to tap on my stomach a few time and then baby opened wide…….it’s a BOY! We couldn’t be happier. He is just perfect. I’ve attached a few photos for you to see. I have my next check up with Dr. Miller next week.
Until next time…
With Love and over the moon,
Dawn
July 29, 2008
I’ll be 26 weeks tomorrow. In a lot of ways the time is flying by. Yesterday I saw Dr. Miller for our routine monthly checkup. He said everything looks to be on target and no worries. I was terrified to step on the scale this month, because I feel like I have doubled in size during the last month. Well my fears were right on, I gained 10 pounds in a month! Yes 10 – I can’t believe it, I was doing so good. That brings my total to 16 pounds gained. Mary reminded me last night that my total weight gain is still under target for “average” at this point in the pregnancy. I know that’s true, however, I didn’t have to try to catch up all in one month.It’s all for a good cause though, right? It just means that baby Joshua is growing. We have a 3D and 4D ultrasound scheduled for August 9, so I’ll be sure to send an update with pictures soon thereafter. Dr. Miller also said that I would most likely have another routine ultrasound performed later on to make sure everything is measuring on target. We emptied the guest room in preparations for the nursery, so now we just need to paint, clean the carpet and wait for the furniture to be delivered. So much to do!
Until next time…
With Love,
Dawn
August 28, 2008
Can you believe that I’m 30 weeks already! I saw Dr. Miller yesterday. My glucose test came back A-OK which is great, my blood pressure is excellent and I only had a 3 pound weight gain this month. What a welcome sight from last month. Whew! Dr. Miller believes that the baby is big so he will do an ultrasound at my next appointment to get a feel for what we are looking at. I have a feeling Josh is going to be a big boy – Yikes!
Other things going on: We had our 4D ultrasound and it was truly amazing. Josh has fat little cheeks and looks just like his Daddy. Greg and I took an infant and child CPR class and a two-part labor basics class offered by the hospital. They were both great. Thanks to Melissa, Heather and BJ, I had a wonderful baby shower. It is so nice to know that Josh is already surrounded with so many people that love him. The nursery furniture will be delivered today, so I can finally get organized. You know it’s killing me to just have stuff laying around.
Until next time…
With Love,
Dawn
September 16, 2008
Tomorrow will mark 33 weeks. We had an ultrasound yesterday and baby is measuring a little over two weeks ahead of schedule and 6 ½ pounds already! No wonder I’m so uncomfortable. The scan also showed excess fluid build up around the baby which causes some concerns. I go back on Thursday for an NST, which is a stress test for the baby, to monitor him for about 20 minutes. Also, I will go back to Dr. Christmas next week for another ultrasound. From here on out Dr. Miller will see me weekly to monitor my progress and make sure the baby is not under any stress. Most likely he will induce labor mid to late October and depending on the estimated size of the baby, we could potentially be looking at a C-Section birth. I’m also having a lot of swelling and apparently, although my glucose test came back normal, the results were on the high side so I’m having to watch my sugar intake as well. So much information to take in and so much to do before our little man arrives. I’ll be sure to update everyone next week.
Until next time…
With Love,
Dawn
October 10, 2008
I’m still pregnant - - Wednesday marked 36 weeks. I’m so close to getting the best gift ever it hurts. Yesterday I saw Dr. Miller and I’ve dilated a measly 1 cm. I guess I should look at it as progress from last week. My blood pressure was a little high yesterday so Dr. Miller is a little concerned about that and will watch it closely. Two and half weeks ago we had another ultrasound done and Dr. Christmas measured the baby to be 7 ½ pounds. We go back this coming Wednesday for another ultrasound and at that time we will start making plans for delivery! If the baby is measuring 9 pounds or more, we will definitely schedule a C-Section. However, Dr. Miller does not want to deliver before 38 weeks. October 22 will be 38 weeks, so we will most likely deliver that week sometime, unless I go into labor on my own before then. Cross your fingers that the full moon next week kicks things into high gear! I guess all my complaining paid off yesterday, because Dr. Miller has restricted me to working only ½ days now. I’ll update everyone again next week after the ultrasound.
Until next time…
With Love,
Dawn
October 17, 2008
If nothing happens between now and then, Joshua will be delivered via C-Section Monday, October 27 at 8:30 a.m. I’m still only one centimeter dilated and the baby is measuring 8.7 pounds (give or take a pound) and all of his measurements are in the 90th percentile. In another 10 days time, he will most likely be too big to deliver vaginally and therefore Dr. Miller believes it will be safer for the baby and me to deliver via the Section. My blood pressure is still creeping up and a little bit of concern, yet we will just continue to monitor over the next week. We can’t wait to meet Joshua and I’m so glad there is an end in sight.
Until next time…
With Love,
Dawn
October 21, 2008
Well it looks like Josh doesn’t want to wait until next week. This morning my blood pressure was taken and it was really high, so Dr. Miller will deliver tomorrow at 11 a.m.! How exciting! Once we are home and settled I’ll be sure to send out another update along with some pictures.
Until next time…
With Love,
Dawn
October 22, 2008
Joshua Michael Anchor entered the world at 11:45 a.m. weighing in at 9lbs 3.5oz and 20 ½ inches long. He is absolutely perfect in every way. He looks just like his Daddy. We are finally a family of three.
With Love,
Dawn
January 26, 2009
Josh is three months old! I can't believe the time has gone by so fast. He changes daily and is meeting milestones often. He is now 14lbs 14.5oz and about 24 inch. He started rolling over at 6 weeks and at 11 weeks started sleeping through the night. He is just beginning to reach out for things, although he isn't sure what to do with his hands yet. He loves to talk and loves to listen and sing along with his music. It's just fascinating to watch him grow and develop.
We visited Dr. Haynes today, the pediatric surgeon, regarding the Ventral Hernia on Josh's tummy. Good news is NO surgery is needed. It's actually not a hernia at all. It's the facia connective tissue around his abdominal muscles. Apparently his is very thin and weak. Over time, as he grows, his muscles will strengthen and all will be normal.
I started working again three weeks ago and all is going well. Josh just loves his "extra" grandparents - - Dina and Bill. They take such good care of him during the day and love him like their own. We are very lucky to have them in our lives. I promise to update the pictures on dotphoto this week sometime. I also need to take more pictures! It's hard to remember when I'm not at home all day anymore. Ugh.
Until next time...
With Love,Dawn
March 26, 2008
Well Greg and I had our first appointment yesterday and although we got some questions answered and a bag of information, we did not get an ultrasound. The ultrasound tech is only in the office twice a week. We are scheduled to have our ultrasound on Monday, March 31st. At that time we should be able to hear the heartbeat and see our little miracle. Although we (I mostly) were disappointed that we didn’t get to hear the heartbeat, everything went well. They are calculating my due date to be November 5th! However, that might change slightly once the ultrasound is done.
Dr. Miller joked about not having triplets lately and we just laughed it off. Then last night I was talking to Mom and she more than willing offered up the info that my Great Grandmother's sister had triplets. Oy! So here's hoping that we only see one little heartbeat on Monday. Keep your fingers crossed.
Until next time....
With Love,
Dawn
April 1, 2008
We had our first ultrasound yesterday and we saw ONE strong little heartbeat. It was the most amazing thing I have ever seen. The heart rate was 178! We even got to see a little foot sticking out. If you look at the attached photos you can sort of make out the arms and legs. The baby is measuring right on schedule and will be due around November 5th.
Until next time...
With Love,
Dawn
April 25, 2008
I went in for a check-up yesterday and everything looks good. I got to hear the heartbeat for the first time which was truly amazing! I haven’t gained any weight which is music to my ears. I’m still having a hard time with my heartburn so Dr. Miller said I can start taking Zantac, so cross your fingers and toes that it works. Other than that I am starting to feel better each day. One more week and I’ll be out of the 1st trimester. Yay!
Until next time...
With Love,
Dawn
May 28, 2008
I’m 17 weeks today! Time is flying. I went in for a check-up yesterday and we are doing great. We heard the heartbeat (first time for Greg) and it sounded strong! It took a minute to find it, I guess the baby was being shy – – starting to worry me already. I gained 5 pounds and it is pretty good since it is the only weight gain I’ve had thus far. The Zantac is helping a lot more than anything else so I’ll continue taking that for heartburn. Due to a genetic family history, Dr. Miller is sending me to a neonatologist (Dr. Christmas) for genetic testing and an extensive ultrasound. That appointment is scheduled for June 18. So three more weeks and we will find out the sex of the baby!
Until next time...
With Love,
Dawn
June 18, 2008
I’m 20 weeks today – half way! Today we had our visit with Dr. Christmas. He said everything looks healthy and normal. The heart rate was 156 bpm. The ultrasound tech asked if we wanted to know what the sex was and I said “of course!” She had to tap on my stomach a few time and then baby opened wide…….it’s a BOY! We couldn’t be happier. He is just perfect. I’ve attached a few photos for you to see. I have my next check up with Dr. Miller next week.
Until next time…
With Love and over the moon,
Dawn
July 29, 2008
I’ll be 26 weeks tomorrow. In a lot of ways the time is flying by. Yesterday I saw Dr. Miller for our routine monthly checkup. He said everything looks to be on target and no worries. I was terrified to step on the scale this month, because I feel like I have doubled in size during the last month. Well my fears were right on, I gained 10 pounds in a month! Yes 10 – I can’t believe it, I was doing so good. That brings my total to 16 pounds gained. Mary reminded me last night that my total weight gain is still under target for “average” at this point in the pregnancy. I know that’s true, however, I didn’t have to try to catch up all in one month.
Until next time…
With Love,
Dawn
August 28, 2008
Can you believe that I’m 30 weeks already! I saw Dr. Miller yesterday. My glucose test came back A-OK which is great, my blood pressure is excellent and I only had a 3 pound weight gain this month. What a welcome sight from last month. Whew! Dr. Miller believes that the baby is big so he will do an ultrasound at my next appointment to get a feel for what we are looking at. I have a feeling Josh is going to be a big boy – Yikes!
Other things going on: We had our 4D ultrasound and it was truly amazing. Josh has fat little cheeks and looks just like his Daddy. Greg and I took an infant and child CPR class and a two-part labor basics class offered by the hospital. They were both great. Thanks to Melissa, Heather and BJ, I had a wonderful baby shower. It is so nice to know that Josh is already surrounded with so many people that love him. The nursery furniture will be delivered today, so I can finally get organized. You know it’s killing me to just have stuff laying around.
Until next time…
With Love,
Dawn
September 16, 2008
Tomorrow will mark 33 weeks. We had an ultrasound yesterday and baby is measuring a little over two weeks ahead of schedule and 6 ½ pounds already! No wonder I’m so uncomfortable. The scan also showed excess fluid build up around the baby which causes some concerns. I go back on Thursday for an NST, which is a stress test for the baby, to monitor him for about 20 minutes. Also, I will go back to Dr. Christmas next week for another ultrasound. From here on out Dr. Miller will see me weekly to monitor my progress and make sure the baby is not under any stress. Most likely he will induce labor mid to late October and depending on the estimated size of the baby, we could potentially be looking at a C-Section birth. I’m also having a lot of swelling and apparently, although my glucose test came back normal, the results were on the high side so I’m having to watch my sugar intake as well. So much information to take in and so much to do before our little man arrives. I’ll be sure to update everyone next week.
Until next time…
With Love,
Dawn
October 10, 2008
I’m still pregnant - - Wednesday marked 36 weeks. I’m so close to getting the best gift ever it hurts. Yesterday I saw Dr. Miller and I’ve dilated a measly 1 cm. I guess I should look at it as progress from last week. My blood pressure was a little high yesterday so Dr. Miller is a little concerned about that and will watch it closely. Two and half weeks ago we had another ultrasound done and Dr. Christmas measured the baby to be 7 ½ pounds. We go back this coming Wednesday for another ultrasound and at that time we will start making plans for delivery! If the baby is measuring 9 pounds or more, we will definitely schedule a C-Section. However, Dr. Miller does not want to deliver before 38 weeks. October 22 will be 38 weeks, so we will most likely deliver that week sometime, unless I go into labor on my own before then. Cross your fingers that the full moon next week kicks things into high gear! I guess all my complaining paid off yesterday, because Dr. Miller has restricted me to working only ½ days now. I’ll update everyone again next week after the ultrasound.
Until next time…
With Love,
Dawn
October 17, 2008
If nothing happens between now and then, Joshua will be delivered via C-Section Monday, October 27 at 8:30 a.m. I’m still only one centimeter dilated and the baby is measuring 8.7 pounds (give or take a pound) and all of his measurements are in the 90th percentile. In another 10 days time, he will most likely be too big to deliver vaginally and therefore Dr. Miller believes it will be safer for the baby and me to deliver via the Section. My blood pressure is still creeping up and a little bit of concern, yet we will just continue to monitor over the next week. We can’t wait to meet Joshua and I’m so glad there is an end in sight.
Until next time…
With Love,
Dawn
October 21, 2008
Well it looks like Josh doesn’t want to wait until next week. This morning my blood pressure was taken and it was really high, so Dr. Miller will deliver tomorrow at 11 a.m.! How exciting! Once we are home and settled I’ll be sure to send out another update along with some pictures.
Until next time…
With Love,
Dawn
October 22, 2008
Joshua Michael Anchor entered the world at 11:45 a.m. weighing in at 9lbs 3.5oz and 20 ½ inches long. He is absolutely perfect in every way. He looks just like his Daddy. We are finally a family of three.
With Love,
Dawn
January 26, 2009
Josh is three months old! I can't believe the time has gone by so fast. He changes daily and is meeting milestones often. He is now 14lbs 14.5oz and about 24 inch. He started rolling over at 6 weeks and at 11 weeks started sleeping through the night. He is just beginning to reach out for things, although he isn't sure what to do with his hands yet. He loves to talk and loves to listen and sing along with his music. It's just fascinating to watch him grow and develop.
We visited Dr. Haynes today, the pediatric surgeon, regarding the Ventral Hernia on Josh's tummy. Good news is NO surgery is needed. It's actually not a hernia at all. It's the facia connective tissue around his abdominal muscles. Apparently his is very thin and weak. Over time, as he grows, his muscles will strengthen and all will be normal.
I started working again three weeks ago and all is going well. Josh just loves his "extra" grandparents - - Dina and Bill. They take such good care of him during the day and love him like their own. We are very lucky to have them in our lives. I promise to update the pictures on dotphoto this week sometime. I also need to take more pictures! It's hard to remember when I'm not at home all day anymore. Ugh.
Until next time...
With Love,Dawn
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